Yeah, I was hardstuck in honor 4 for months. Till I just thought how about I just submit a ticket to Riot and ask about it. Turns out, I do have the tendency to get "toxic" although it isn't bad... any kind of toxicity can hold your progress.
From that point on I decided to be even MORE positive no matter what. It's hard, oh it's hard. But it seems by improving my behaviour, if it changed much or not idk, but I finally did hit honor 5 now. I am glad that I could improve my behaviour at the very end of the season, on to the next season!
Feels bad that the honor 4 ward looks better though.