It's been a bit over a year now since I told myself that i wanna get Master Tier and I decided to put alot of time and effort into it.
Since then i watched a ton of VOD of higher elo players and tried to learn as much as i can from it.
When i started my journey I was d5 with plat MMR.
I decided I had enough if being "okay" at this game: I wanna get good at it.
The first few months went really well. I climed to d2 promos in a matter of 3 months before Season 8 ended and I thought I could reach Master in Season 9.
However this year has been anything but motivating. In this Year i managed to only peak D1 promos. For a whole year of trying to improve, this feels like nothing.
After i lost my 4th D1 promo i now dropped to d4 and now i struggle to carry Games in d4/d3.
I have this feeling that I am not good enough and honestly it can be really crushing.
I like to be good at the things i do and in league I am far away from it despite all of my efforts trying to improve.
Since I dont want this post to just be about me, It's your turn.
Anyone else feeling the same? feel free to share your experiences in the comments.
Else have a nice day and GL reaching your goals!