I stopped enjoying it a long time ago and nowadays I don't give a sh*t if I'm winning but it ruins my whole day if something goes wrong. It got to the point that I feel like dying at the smallest bad thing like the enemy walking away with 1 hp. I think I've rage quit like 7 out of my last 10 games in the past week and even though I know what's going to happen I always start another one... I can't even have fun in this game while drunk, so why do I keep doing this to myself? Do I really have nothing better to do than to just start playing the game that does nothing but ruin my mood? I get tilted in fking normal games then feel like shit about it for hours on end, even avoiding friends during that time. It even left me with a trauma of some kind as I will never touch any sort of ranked on any game ever again due to experiences from LoL's ranked.
I'm not even over-exaggerating, this game is legitimately ruining my life... So why do I keep playing it and why is it so difficult to quit?